i wonder wonder wonder..........................




Bday is just a day for the individual to rmb how long they have lived and also grown a year older, more mature more independent more responisble for one's own action and decision.



One day by one day, time goes by in flick second.... the next minute u realised it, one day has gone... then one week gone, then one month gone.... 20 years has gone by.




friends ard me r slowly turing older and older including me.... but wat always happen is either they totally forget abt me, nv even bother to ask whether i am free to get tgt with them or rmb to ask me to share presents for another of our friends... i wonder do they even noe mine is just a fews days before her???
Do they noe how i felt when i was being forgotten like this or being ask like that to celebrate for another??? i do not want to put on a fake smile and laughter while i am hurting inside, really hurting. will ppl even believe tt my tears flow down my cheek when i am writing all this...




ppl i consider as friend, show my care and respect to... nv even treat me as a friend. i am invisible and easily forgotten. i do not have any significant impact on friends to let them rmb or even say "she's mine friend"




my mum scolded me saying, "she already treated u like this y do u even care to still think of her- her bday, how is she doing?" but wat to do, i am like this... treat every friendship as important, for me i really think friends are important in my life, i cant stand having no friends at all i just cant...



smt i am very very jealous of those who have friends from young (childhood friends), best friends where they can say everything and anything, with still so much to say even if they see each other everyday...



y am i such a hermit, an anti-social individual....



i keep on telling myself that i shld not let all these bother me, just be myself and get alone with life not expecting anything, but i just cant.... sry abt the content being so dis-organised; i just typed wat is in my mind... i am not expecting ppl to read and understand wat i am saying.



everyday there are ppl who r born into this world or left this world.... i shall just be myself; dun want to think abt all these le, welcome and faced everyday happily, spent time with those who are willing to spend time with me =)




I shall not expect anything as ppl ususally say, "the more u expect, the more disappointed u will get" when wat u expect does not turn out as u wish...
but wat to do... humans are like tt........................




Messy content, i apologise to those who are actually reading this. and Thx! for spending time to read.

6:39 PM


colourful

棒棒堂 new song for 黑糖群俠傳

棒棒堂 - 秘密基地

棒棒堂 - 藏經閣

8:10 PM


colourful

new nice songs + 1old



五月天 - 開天窗



公主幫 - 公主徹夜未眠



宅男塾 - 阿宅失眠日記



蘇慧倫 - 左撇子


11:03 PM


colourful

listen



棒棒堂 - 哪里怕





hav been working for a while le, is a part time job offered by a company that shirl is working at.... want a perm job.... still finding though

not so much updates recently.... working life not good...

till then

9:20 PM


colourful

lollipop concert dvd





7:25 PM


colourful

i am still looking for a suitable job!


god, buddha, genie, anyone pls let me get the job that i want....


the days are getting nearer and nearer; min going overseas to study le.... others going UNI, SMU to study male friends going NS.... only me still looking for a job haven settle down...


i really miss school life... at least during that time, friends gathered together to attend lessons, quizzes, test, lab work, project, although it is very stressful and tired, at least it is fun as friends are with u.... all the happy school lives are all precious memories for us... we can't turn back to enjoy that kind of life anymore....


we have to enjoy and experience each and everyday of our life to the fullest as future is a mystery, past is history and today is a gift, that's y is called the present...

friends and family members conquered 100% of my life... without them i dun noe wat i have become.


棒棒堂　-　我們之間


go listen other 棒棒堂 songs, nice

6:24 PM


colourful

Lollipop 棒棒堂 =)



my blog has been dead for the past 1 mth... hahaha.... dun think anyone notice it...


oh well it is alive again!


suddenly feel like blogging so here i am .


having been finding jobs but till now still slacking at home.... i want to find a job that i am interested in so i will work happily and long inside.... if the job is not i like de, i will not be happy and won't do that well as compared to the one i like..... pls let me get the job that i like!!!!!!!!


模范棒棒堂 is nice!!!!


and i like LOLLIPOP 棒棒堂! dun ask me y i like them... i just do okay!!! haha.... i think they very cool. some of the member wrote songs in their album (xiao jie, xiao yu and wang zi)... nice nice nice!!! they coming to singapore. having autograph session at lunar. the problem is they are limiting the ppl to go in so tickets are needed to enter.... hai i did not have any chance to get the tickets..... very very sad!!!!!! this is the first time they come and it is not very long.... the next time they come might be quite some time later le.... anyway good luck!


棒棒堂 jia you jia you jia you!!!!

3:29 PM


colourful

Been busy finding jobs recently after week o and also going for dental appointment....
went to pluck my wisdom tooth, every week pluck 1.... but i am going to pluck mine lower wisdom teeth soon.... very scary!!!!!!!!!!!!!


for the upper ones, when plucking and after plucking is very painful, the wound will heal by itself.... brave for me to endure.... my tears coming out the lat time i pluck it...... coz very verp painful, and the doctor give me lots and lots of jab to numb it but also no use leh... the jab itself also very painful to my thin fragile sensitive gum.... then after the extraction, my left side of the mouth is numb de... think the doctor jab at the wrong place. haha


give me the strength to be brave and can tolerate the painfulness while extraction during the next visit! pls... dun let me cry....


oh and dun think about it now! the thought of it is very scary, my sis told me that the lower ones will need surgery and the doctor will first give jab to numb then cut the teeth into half, take out the wisdom teeth then stitch the gum back! u see the thought of it is alr very scary right?


i dun want to feel the pain leh.... my bro and sis bet that i will cry.... as i am quite of an emotional type and mine tears come out easily.


no pain pls, no crying, strength to be brave, to tolerate the pain, dun feel the jab or stitch!!!! *cross finger*..... seriously i very scare.... urgh....


okie okie dun think dun think....

i going out later! like finally ppl jio me out la... haha =)))))

10:15 AM


colourful

nice song by kenji wu (wu ke qun)

吴克群 - 为你写诗

12:34 PM


colourful

i realised!!!



realise that no matter how long i sleep, i am still very tired!


i am back from my week o orientation.... i seriously have fun and made lots of friends!!!!
sry peeps, no photos coz i got no time to pose and i do not have a camera... not much stuffs to say though... coz all my time is at log room. prepare items, prepare food... i think i am suited to these type of roles... haha. quietly helping others from behind without asking for anything in return, will be very happy and touched when the people are happy!


this yr the freshies not very hyper leh, very very quiet... only a handful, like in kaveen and wei khim's class there are 2-3 girls very active and hyper, and dixie and jufri's class there is this guy, when ask them to cheer, he will listen and cheer together! if all the freshies are like that then good, at least will listen and follow... but they are not, Elites and SOF are already surrounding them all cheering very loudly, but the freshies are all sitting there unwillingly to participate, worst is to sit and stare... like we are clowns like that and we are like speaking and talking in another language that they nv heard of....


i know they are tired, as i have been through wat they are going through, but i still cooperate with my OLs and seniors and give my best.... as it is MY sch i am cheering for and I will be studying in THIS sch for 3years, so it will be my second home.... Have to be proud of ur sch/ home isn't???? if we lose, at least i noe i have given my best.... hai.... i can't do much now as the events had past, wat i can only do is find a job, start working, and give morale support to those who are still studying...


2nd place in db's women:

on thursday, i slept like 16hrs la... then today i wake up and count the hrs, its like 13hrs... so long can... still tired think is due to muscle ache... over stretch of muscle from monday db training and continuous carring of stuffs...


i am starting to miss sch life!!! how how how.... have to start looking for job le.... i dun want to go out to the working life la....


To all friends: Sch reopening soon, so rest well and jia you!

Friends: jio me out if u are free, i will go provided that i am free too! tell me in advance, in case i find job le, so can take leave....

9:53 PM


colourful

going back to sch almost everyday for week o preparations...
nth much to write....


i am confused and scared, is two diff things

10:47 PM


colourful

back from OLTC camp... haha... made new friends.... got eye candy! haha but not in my grp =(
i have fun, no regret joining.... hope week o is a success! gambate!!!!



Here's a very nice song lyrics
九十九次我爱他 - 元若蓝

保加利亞玫瑰的精油
全滴在他剛才牽過我的手
橫衝直撞我的心像一顆躲避球
誰懂愛停在手裡多久


學問道理教科書都有
戀愛上上籤到底哪裡求
如果有教授 我一定要努力修
丘比特呀快為我加油


多想帶著雷達 到他夢裡 仔細調查
愛的正卡還有沒有副卡
也想拿起掃把 在他心底 洗洗刷刷
不專心的念頭 哎咿哎咿 都清除啦


九十九次我愛他 少了眼皮會亂眨
要他能心電感應我的想法
每天念著他的名字 哎咿哎咿 一句不差


九十九次我愛他 少了頭髮會分岔
要他的想念每天準時打卡
愛像冰淇淋在嘴裡溶化


學問道理教科書都有
戀愛上上籤到底哪裡求
如果有教授 我一定要努力修
丘比特呀快為我加油


多想帶著雷達 到他夢裡 仔細調查
愛的正卡還有沒有副卡
也想拿起掃把 在他心底 洗洗刷刷
不專心的念頭 哎咿哎咿 都清除啦


九十九次我愛他 少了眼皮會亂眨
要他能心電感應我的想法
每天念著他的名字 哎咿哎咿 一句不差


九十九次我愛他 少了頭髮會分岔
要他的想念每天準時打卡
愛像冰淇淋在嘴裡溶化


九十九次我愛他 少了眼皮會亂眨
要他能心電感應我的想法
每天念著他的名字 哎咿哎咿 一句不差


九十九次我愛他 少了頭髮會分岔
要他的想念每天準時打卡
愛像冰淇淋在(我)嘴裡溶化

1:20 PM


colourful

went praying yest at bishan and bedok then, the journey was very long coz there is traffic jam at AMK there so in the end we sat in the bus for like 1hr 45mins... tired leh


went to dental with my sister. i see her pluck wisdom teeth very pain..... i dun want pluck le la......... needles and ma zhui yao an instrument like plier..... pain pain pain leh.... and i am very shocked that the wisdom teeth is very big! oh my god..... i scared le la... so big rooted so deep inside have to be pulled and pluck out.....


when the time comes for me to pluck out, pls got ppl acc me.... i scare and pls knock me unconcious i very scare see needle and i can't tolerate pain!!!!! so scary la...................

10:26 AM


colourful

i wonder wonder wonder..........................




Bday is just a day for the individual to rmb how long they have lived and also grown a year older, more mature more independent more responisble for one's own action and decision.



One day by one day, time goes by in flick second.... the next minute u realised it, one day has gone... then one week gone, then one month gone.... 20 years has gone by.




friends ard me r slowly turing older and older including me.... but wat always happen is either they totally forget abt me, nv even bother to ask whether i am free to get tgt with them or rmb to ask me to share presents for another of our friends... i wonder do they even noe mine is just a fews days before her???
Do they noe how i felt when i was being forgotten like this or being ask like that to celebrate for another??? i do not want to put on a fake smile and laughter while i am hurting inside, really hurting. will ppl even believe tt my tears flow down my cheek when i am writing all this...




ppl i consider as friend, show my care and respect to... nv even treat me as a friend. i am invisible and easily forgotten. i do not have any significant impact on friends to let them rmb or even say "she's mine friend"




my mum scolded me saying, "she already treated u like this y do u even care to still think of her- her bday, how is she doing?" but wat to do, i am like this... treat every friendship as important, for me i really think friends are important in my life, i cant stand having no friends at all i just cant...



smt i am very very jealous of those who have friends from young (childhood friends), best friends where they can say everything and anything, with still so much to say even if they see each other everyday...



y am i such a hermit, an anti-social individual....



i keep on telling myself that i shld not let all these bother me, just be myself and get alone with life not expecting anything, but i just cant.... sry abt the content being so dis-organised; i just typed wat is in my mind... i am not expecting ppl to read and understand wat i am saying.



everyday there are ppl who r born into this world or left this world.... i shall just be myself; dun want to think abt all these le, welcome and faced everyday happily, spent time with those who are willing to spend time with me =)




I shall not expect anything as ppl ususally say, "the more u expect, the more disappointed u will get" when wat u expect does not turn out as u wish...
but wat to do... humans are like tt........................




Messy content, i apologise to those who are actually reading this. and Thx! for spending time to read.

6:39 PM


learning to be happy!

棒棒堂 new song for 黑糖群俠傳

棒棒堂 - 秘密基地

棒棒堂 - 藏經閣

8:10 PM


learning to be happy!

new nice songs + 1old



五月天 - 開天窗



公主幫 - 公主徹夜未眠



宅男塾 - 阿宅失眠日記



蘇慧倫 - 左撇子


11:03 PM


learning to be happy!

listen



棒棒堂 - 哪里怕





hav been working for a while le, is a part time job offered by a company that shirl is working at.... want a perm job.... still finding though

not so much updates recently.... working life not good...

till then

9:20 PM


learning to be happy!

lollipop concert dvd





7:25 PM


learning to be happy!

i am still looking for a suitable job!


god, buddha, genie, anyone pls let me get the job that i want....


the days are getting nearer and nearer; min going overseas to study le.... others going UNI, SMU to study male friends going NS.... only me still looking for a job haven settle down...


i really miss school life... at least during that time, friends gathered together to attend lessons, quizzes, test, lab work, project, although it is very stressful and tired, at least it is fun as friends are with u.... all the happy school lives are all precious memories for us... we can't turn back to enjoy that kind of life anymore....


we have to enjoy and experience each and everyday of our life to the fullest as future is a mystery, past is history and today is a gift, that's y is called the present...

friends and family members conquered 100% of my life... without them i dun noe wat i have become.


棒棒堂　-　我們之間


go listen other 棒棒堂 songs, nice

6:24 PM


learning to be happy!

Lollipop 棒棒堂 =)



my blog has been dead for the past 1 mth... hahaha.... dun think anyone notice it...


oh well it is alive again!


suddenly feel like blogging so here i am .


having been finding jobs but till now still slacking at home.... i want to find a job that i am interested in so i will work happily and long inside.... if the job is not i like de, i will not be happy and won't do that well as compared to the one i like..... pls let me get the job that i like!!!!!!!!


模范棒棒堂 is nice!!!!


and i like LOLLIPOP 棒棒堂! dun ask me y i like them... i just do okay!!! haha.... i think they very cool. some of the member wrote songs in their album (xiao jie, xiao yu and wang zi)... nice nice nice!!! they coming to singapore. having autograph session at lunar. the problem is they are limiting the ppl to go in so tickets are needed to enter.... hai i did not have any chance to get the tickets..... very very sad!!!!!! this is the first time they come and it is not very long.... the next time they come might be quite some time later le.... anyway good luck!


棒棒堂 jia you jia you jia you!!!!

3:29 PM


learning to be happy!

Been busy finding jobs recently after week o and also going for dental appointment....
went to pluck my wisdom tooth, every week pluck 1.... but i am going to pluck mine lower wisdom teeth soon.... very scary!!!!!!!!!!!!!


for the upper ones, when plucking and after plucking is very painful, the wound will heal by itself.... brave for me to endure.... my tears coming out the lat time i pluck it...... coz very verp painful, and the doctor give me lots and lots of jab to numb it but also no use leh... the jab itself also very painful to my thin fragile sensitive gum.... then after the extraction, my left side of the mouth is numb de... think the doctor jab at the wrong place. haha


give me the strength to be brave and can tolerate the painfulness while extraction during the next visit! pls... dun let me cry....


oh and dun think about it now! the thought of it is very scary, my sis told me that the lower ones will need surgery and the doctor will first give jab to numb then cut the teeth into half, take out the wisdom teeth then stitch the gum back! u see the thought of it is alr very scary right?


i dun want to feel the pain leh.... my bro and sis bet that i will cry.... as i am quite of an emotional type and mine tears come out easily.


no pain pls, no crying, strength to be brave, to tolerate the pain, dun feel the jab or stitch!!!! *cross finger*..... seriously i very scare.... urgh....


okie okie dun think dun think....

i going out later! like finally ppl jio me out la... haha =)))))

10:15 AM


learning to be happy!

nice song by kenji wu (wu ke qun)

吴克群 - 为你写诗

12:34 PM


learning to be happy!

i realised!!!



realise that no matter how long i sleep, i am still very tired!


i am back from my week o orientation.... i seriously have fun and made lots of friends!!!!
sry peeps, no photos coz i got no time to pose and i do not have a camera... not much stuffs to say though... coz all my time is at log room. prepare items, prepare food... i think i am suited to these type of roles... haha. quietly helping others from behind without asking for anything in return, will be very happy and touched when the people are happy!


this yr the freshies not very hyper leh, very very quiet... only a handful, like in kaveen and wei khim's class there are 2-3 girls very active and hyper, and dixie and jufri's class there is this guy, when ask them to cheer, he will listen and cheer together! if all the freshies are like that then good, at least will listen and follow... but they are not, Elites and SOF are already surrounding them all cheering very loudly, but the freshies are all sitting there unwillingly to participate, worst is to sit and stare... like we are clowns like that and we are like speaking and talking in another language that they nv heard of....


i know they are tired, as i have been through wat they are going through, but i still cooperate with my OLs and seniors and give my best.... as it is MY sch i am cheering for and I will be studying in THIS sch for 3years, so it will be my second home.... Have to be proud of ur sch/ home isn't???? if we lose, at least i noe i have given my best.... hai.... i can't do much now as the events had past, wat i can only do is find a job, start working, and give morale support to those who are still studying...


2nd place in db's women:

on thursday, i slept like 16hrs la... then today i wake up and count the hrs, its like 13hrs... so long can... still tired think is due to muscle ache... over stretch of muscle from monday db training and continuous carring of stuffs...


i am starting to miss sch life!!! how how how.... have to start looking for job le.... i dun want to go out to the working life la....


To all friends: Sch reopening soon, so rest well and jia you!

Friends: jio me out if u are free, i will go provided that i am free too! tell me in advance, in case i find job le, so can take leave....

9:53 PM


learning to be happy!

going back to sch almost everyday for week o preparations...
nth much to write....


i am confused and scared, is two diff things

10:47 PM


learning to be happy!

back from OLTC camp... haha... made new friends.... got eye candy! haha but not in my grp =(
i have fun, no regret joining.... hope week o is a success! gambate!!!!



Here's a very nice song lyrics
九十九次我爱他 - 元若蓝

保加利亞玫瑰的精油
全滴在他剛才牽過我的手
橫衝直撞我的心像一顆躲避球
誰懂愛停在手裡多久


學問道理教科書都有
戀愛上上籤到底哪裡求
如果有教授 我一定要努力修
丘比特呀快為我加油


多想帶著雷達 到他夢裡 仔細調查
愛的正卡還有沒有副卡
也想拿起掃把 在他心底 洗洗刷刷
不專心的念頭 哎咿哎咿 都清除啦


九十九次我愛他 少了眼皮會亂眨
要他能心電感應我的想法
每天念著他的名字 哎咿哎咿 一句不差


九十九次我愛他 少了頭髮會分岔
要他的想念每天準時打卡
愛像冰淇淋在嘴裡溶化


學問道理教科書都有
戀愛上上籤到底哪裡求
如果有教授 我一定要努力修
丘比特呀快為我加油


多想帶著雷達 到他夢裡 仔細調查
愛的正卡還有沒有副卡
也想拿起掃把 在他心底 洗洗刷刷
不專心的念頭 哎咿哎咿 都清除啦


九十九次我愛他 少了眼皮會亂眨
要他能心電感應我的想法
每天念著他的名字 哎咿哎咿 一句不差


九十九次我愛他 少了頭髮會分岔
要他的想念每天準時打卡
愛像冰淇淋在嘴裡溶化


九十九次我愛他 少了眼皮會亂眨
要他能心電感應我的想法
每天念著他的名字 哎咿哎咿 一句不差


九十九次我愛他 少了頭髮會分岔
要他的想念每天準時打卡
愛像冰淇淋在(我)嘴裡溶化

1:20 PM


learning to be happy!

went praying yest at bishan and bedok then, the journey was very long coz there is traffic jam at AMK there so in the end we sat in the bus for like 1hr 45mins... tired leh


went to dental with my sister. i see her pluck wisdom teeth very pain..... i dun want pluck le la......... needles and ma zhui yao an instrument like plier..... pain pain pain leh.... and i am very shocked that the wisdom teeth is very big! oh my god..... i scared le la... so big rooted so deep inside have to be pulled and pluck out.....


when the time comes for me to pluck out, pls got ppl acc me.... i scare and pls knock me unconcious i very scare see needle and i can't tolerate pain!!!!! so scary la...................

10:26 AM


learning to be happy!

About Me

name~ ng sin ee
age~ 19
birthday~ 21/03/88
height~ 1.70
school~ TP (AFSN)
cca~ ASc
childish
emotional
fat
irritating
stupid
tHink toO much

Msn
sineeng@hotmail.com

Adores

certain veggie
CoLouRs
dairy products
daydreaming/stoning
fruits
nAtuRe
my family!
making new frenz + renew-ing old frenz
my piano
playing sports

listening to music:
-Fei Lun Hai(Wu ZuN)
-183 club
-F.I.R
-Luo zHi xIang
-mayday
-S.H.E
-TanK
-TwinS

WatCh shoW tt has:
-chaI zhuo yAn
-Edison chen
-LouIs KhoO
-Nicholas Tse
- N MusiCal

Loathes

being ignored
being sad
being sick
betrayers n backstabbers
crowded places
thinking too much of the unnecessary

Wants

to have a unqiue bday
more $$$
new hp
be happy
to be more confident
everyone to be happy
to be thinner and fitter
to go for concert
to meet him
exams to clear

wish met:
(2005)
converse shoe
kboxing
sem tests to pass
HAVE AN ENJOYABLE N UN4GETABLE B'DAY ON MY 18TH

(2006)
watch movies(XMEN III)
to get into main com
go kbox and kcc
learn to b more patience
survived the year

(2007)
go to senTosA
go kcC
clear my exams
survived the year

August 2005
September 2005
October 2005
November 2005
December 2005
January 2006
February 2006
March 2006
April 2006
May 2006
June 2006
July 2006
August 2006
September 2006
October 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
February 2007
March 2007
April 2007
May 2007
June 2007
July 2007
September 2007
October 2007
November 2007
December 2007
January 2008
February 2008
March 2008
April 2008
May 2008
June 2008
July 2008
August 2008
September 2008
October 2008
March 2009

Adeline
Adelyn
Andy.Jiahao
Angela
Bee Geok
Brennagh
Brother
Caleen
Chee Leong
Cheng Hsuan
Clarissa
Clement
David
Dexter
Dixie
Ee Ling
Elaine
Faezah
Fiona
Han Ping
Huda
Hui Jing
Hui Nee
JeNnA
JeNny
Jin Loong
Joanne
Joey.Jia Hui
Jue Xiu
Jun Jie
Kenny
Lay Leng
Leslie
Le Ying
Mas
Mawar
Michel
Nicole
Rachel
Ricky
Sallehin
Sharon
Shining
Shirleen
Sister
Siti
Stefenie
Tze Choong
Wendy
WeiLin
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